Alright, I'm in love with the man of my dreams, okay... There are no ands, ifs, or buts... However, I've felt this feeling more then once, and I admit, I have trouble letting those whom I love go...

My last girlfriend, is my best friend in the entire world, or at least I thought she was - because lately I've felt like she's drifting away, even though I'm trying my damnedest to hold onto her. I fight and I fight, trying to find time to talk to her, and keep her as my own, I know it's greedy to always be jealous of her... But I'm not!! It's just one person who makes me possessive, one or another person who sets off alarm bells in my head and makes me want to snatch her up and never let her go again...

Its' so strange, but anything and everything even mentioned of her touching that line, of even thinking of crossing it... breaks my heart... I'm afraid... I'm truly afraid I'm going to lose my best friend and the first love of my life... Simply because I cannot physically hug her close to me and tell her how truly afraid I am to lose her... How much I truly want nothing but a perfect life for her... How much I miss what we had...

Even if she isn't my girlfriend, or isn't my lover, I still love her with all my heart... And I want nothing but the best life can offer her...

...I know it might not sound selfish, but I feel so greedy and self centered...